I came across this post on Instagram one night and it just hit me hard, especially the other night when I was feeling very aware of how fast I’ve been moving and how I’ve been doing-doing-doing instead of stopping to enjoy what I have (which is all beyond good, amazing even). I feel like I’ve been taking quite a bit for granted lately.
I have my daily gratitude practice but it’s felt like it lacks depth and weight lately. I’ve been coasting a bit this week, not taking care of myself in many of the ways I know I need to in order to live at my best. I’m at my best when I’m vibrating positive loving energy and radiating it outwards to all those around me. This week I’ve been burning the candle at both ends, and for what? I have this old belief coming up (I’ve finally recognized it and I’m willing to call myself out on it) that success equals love.
Gabby Bernstein mentioned it last week at her Yoga Journal Live talk and its still resonating now. I am getting so caught up in doing that I’m not leaving any time or space for being. And being is when the magic happens. By constantly doing and keeping in motion I’m blocking opportunities that the universe is trying to send me and guide me towards. I’ve been having tunnel vision this week and I’m only just now seeing it in hindsight. I don’t want to burn out in order to stop. I can slow down now before it gets to that point. This is something to be truly grateful for: the awareness and wherewithal to put a stop to an old pattern that just doesn’t work anymore. #LetThatShitGo
Doing things differently is uncomfortable and scary because ultimately I don’t know how I’m going to be – but I have a feeling that I’ll be better off by slowing down and taking it easy. My goddess card oracle reading this AM told me to easy does it – as I quickly pulled the card on my way out, getting to work late yet again. What does that mean anyway? It means give yourself a break. Breathe. Take it easy. Do something right now that feels good just for the sake of feeling good. You deserve it. You don’t need to be productive 24/7 to matter. You are intrinsically valuable just by being you, just by existing in this divine moment. And you have so much to be grateful for.